How old are you and how do you feel about your age, aging, your future?
I am sharing a true story
Thank you Nidhi Singh for sharing such informative blog post........
Nidhi's words:-
I’m 28.
When I was a toddler, whenever I would find a ₹1 coin anywhere, I would talk about buying a house, toys, chocolates, fruits and many more things with that ₹1. Toddlers don’t know how the world works.
When I was in school, I was often teased about the area I lived in. I lived in an independent home in the lanes of East Delhi till about the age of 14 while most of my classmates lived in the apartments near my School on the outskirts of Delhi which had all (then) modern amenities. Since I lived a bit far off from the School, I couldn’t take dance, judo and other extra curricular classes. I felt excluded in many groups and couldn’t make many friends because of the inferiority complex I had developed.
After 14, we moved to the apartments near my School on rent. My father told us we are moving there for our further holistic development. We were again looked down upon since we were no longer living in our own house. There were differential rates and facilities for tenants and owners in the apartments so anyone could make out. We used to tell everyone that we have our home in another area and we are living here just to complete schooling. The truth was that my father had suffered a massive loss at his business and we had to sell our home.
When I started going to College, nobody knew about the existence of my school because my classmates also came from different well-known schools. By then it had stopped bothering me. I was way too concerned about finding a job.
When I started working, I had to move away from my family and my hometown for the first time and this came with its own challenges. Working in a remote location, loneliness and fear of not making it to the top was all that surrounded me.
Cut to the answer now:
At different stages in life, there have been my own concerns, problems and things that made me happy. In the other stages, those very concerns, problems and happy-making-things were completely immaterial. Every stage comes up with completely new things that make you happy and worried. You keep leaving behind the things of the past. In present, those things might appear to be all that there is but just wait for the future…
I have grown up from being that toddler that believed in Re. 1 to being an independent woman who knows that nothing is permanent- Neither my problems nor my happiness.
I feel I will always live a life full of learning. I will age and see different things and also the same things differently, and that will make all the difference :)
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